Friday, April 1, 2011

No Fooling.

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I wrote before about how I was starting to feel better, almost like a cloud had been lifted from over me. Of course, there is the inevitable ebb and flow to feeling better. That is normal to anyone's life, but for me, right now, it's a bit more challenging. I feel thrown for a loop every time things seem to be getting so much better only to have another kink in the road. I know that's how it goes. It's like climbing the switchbacks on a trail. You just keep plugging along and sooner or later you'll reach the top.

I feel like I'm pretty close to the top. I don't want to jinx myself and come crashing down, but I feel pretty good. I have things I want to do and I feel like I can (if only colds and flu bugs didn't keep getting in the way!). I have ideas and I want to implement plans to make them happen. I feel optimistic. I don't want to take everything on at once, but I really feel like these baby steps will eventually get me somewhere. I'm no longer feeling so paralyzed by that perfectionist voice in my head. Surely I have many things to work through with counseling, but I feel like the debilitating PPD has eased itself.

I feel like April is my month. No fooling.

Now if we can just all get physically well then we'll really be rolling.


  1. I'm so glad to read this post! I hope you all get healthy soon so you can get your fabulous April started! :)

  2. I know exactly what you mean about needing to finally have a healthy family to make things happen... I feel like it has been months since everyone here was totally well! Of course A is teething, so that is part of it.

    Anyways, I am so excited to hear that your good days continue! I am excited for you, and I must say I have loved all the posting lately, too! I hope you all feel better soon so you can REALLY enjoy this time! :)

  3. My cell phone keeps eating my comments! Grr! Here's sorta what I wanted to write:

    I am glad to hear the PPD is lifting for you. I am also feeling (and writing) the same. And I have the same fear about whether it's real or PPDmons will return. I like your analogy of the switch back trail. Somedays I feel like I take one step forward and two steps back (or eight) but I'm still walking along.

    And I'm on that path right behind you, ready to lend an arm if you need support.

  4. I hope you and your kids are much healthier this month. Having sick kids certainly does not make things easy. And I'm glad you are feeling better. Even without PPD, ups and downs are bound to happen.

  5. SOOOO glad to hear you're feeling better! Text any time if you want to, happy or not! I'm always here!


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