No Fooling.

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I wrote before about how I was starting to feel better, almost like a cloud had been lifted from over me. Of course, there is the inevitable ebb and flow to feeling better. That is normal to anyone's life, but for me, right now, it's a bit more challenging. I feel thrown for a loop every time things seem to be getting so much better only to have another kink in the road. I know that's how it goes. It's like climbing the switchbacks on a trail. You just keep plugging along and sooner or later you'll reach the top.

I feel like I'm pretty close to the top. I don't want to jinx myself and come crashing down, but I feel pretty good. I have things I want to do and I feel like I can (if only colds and flu bugs didn't keep getting in the way!). I have ideas and I want to implement plans to make them happen. I feel optimistic. I don't want to take everything on at once, but I really feel like these baby steps will eventually get me somewhere. I'm no longer feeling so paralyzed by that perfectionist voice in my head. Surely I have many things to work through with counseling, but I feel like the debilitating PPD has eased itself.

I feel like April is my month. No fooling.

Now if we can just all get physically well then we'll really be rolling.