I am hopeful that this is going to be a good week.
Last week was rough and that would be putting it lightly. I was in a very poor mood and Thanksgiving sort of crept up and made it even more of an anxious week. Add on a few other personal things and wa-la! it was a recipe for disaster.
I have my first appointment with the counselor on Wednesday. I'm glad. And nervous. I hope I like her. I hope I feel at ease enough to talk through everything. I've had a lot on my mind lately and the PPD just seems to be compounding things.
Glenn sat down and balanced the pile of receipts we had for the checkbook today. I usually handle all the financial issues -- the checkbook, paying the bills, etc. He brings home the bacon and I distribute it. I think having him write everything down really gave him a better perspective on things. We have been talking a lot about financial stuff lately -- changing our expenditures, our mindset and so on -- and I really feel like we're on the same page. We have a plan for the future. Now just to implement it.
I also feel better about getting a plan into place for keeping up with chores around the house. I don't want it to be immaculate all the time, but I'd like some semblance of order. And, now that Bubby seems very ready to crawl I really want to make sure things are more tidy, kept out of his reach, etc. I have this master plan where I could clean one room a day and do one (or two) loads of laundry a day and then each week things would be taken care of. I seem to get into an all-or-nothing mindset and I don't think that's helpful at all. Little by little is how it's going to have to be.
I also think we're going to start doing some holiday things this week. I'm hoping to get out to one of the local evening events if the weather is nice. We'll have to go on Glenn's night off because my anxiety and crowds don't really mix right now (or ever). We'll probably put the tree up on Wednesday. I'm really excited about that, but, at the same time, it'll probably be an adventure with a eight-and-a-half month old who's learning to crawl.
So, we'll see how the week goes. For now, I'm hopeful that it will be a good one.
I hope your meeting with the counselor goes well. I have read that it takes a lot to seek help when depression is taking away all your motivation.
ReplyDeleteFor cleaning/organization--Have you been to flylady.com? She has some good ideas for establishing cleaning routines. I just started doing her "babysteps" last week and it is really helping me--I tend to get very overwhelmed and then I just put off cleaning and it continues to build up, and then I tend to clean in spurts and then get burned out and then it piles up again and that just doesn't work! Flylady's system starts small and focuses on building habits and it has been really helpful for me so far (I'm on day 6). Oh, and it's free, too!
Good luck with the counselor. If you don't feel a good click then don't hesitate to ask for another one. You need to feel comfy to be able to work through everything.
ReplyDeleteAs for cleaning, don't forget mommy's 10 minute tidies ;) Also, if you pick a day next weekend (I have Sunday off) I can come over and help clean up or list stuff on craigslist or whatever will help you feel more ready for the holidays.
Hopeful is a good way to be...
ReplyDeletegood luck with everything!! Thinking of you...
I hope that you have a good week too! I'm sorry that last week was more difficult than usual. I was feeling a little down too and I'm sure the holiday had a lot to do with it.
ReplyDeletesending you warm fuzzies and a big hug...it's a challenging time, and a little extra hope can get you though.
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