I finally called my midwife to get a recommendation for a counselor. I know, I know...I said I was going to do this two weeks ago. But I didn't. The days passed. Things have been going a little better. I feel like I have a better handle on things. Some of the time. I talked with a friend who is going through some of the same things.
There's no shame in reaching out for some help. Sure, I could've done it earlier. I also know better today than tomorrow.
My midwife just called back and they have a list of counselors in the area. I figured that would be a better option than throwing a dart and picking one of the long list my insurance has. I chatted with my midwife and it felt good. I think it will really help to be able to go and talk with someone about all the stuff that's going on.
I haven't shied away from getting help (either psychological or pharmacological) in the past and there's no reason I should now. I would prefer to avoid pharmaceutical medications now and I think seeking help from a counselor is a great first step. I also want to start exercising again. I really need to walk my talk; here I am with a research background in the anti-depressant effects of exercise and doing nothing about it. But, if there's one thing I know about depression, it's the starting to do something about it that's the most important part.
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And, one year ago today we found out we were having a baby boy. Seems like eons ago.
Good for you! You are worth it and your health is worth it.
ReplyDeleteGreat Kristen!! I think this is an exciting first step to feeling great!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you both made the call, and that things are getting a little easier for you.
ReplyDeleteGood for you! I'd love to get out for more walks with the kiddos. If you want company, we could set up some meetups!
ReplyDeleteThe conundrum with depression is that when you are in the pits you don't have the wherewithall to do the things you need to do to get better. So it makes total sense that when you felt a little better, you could take steps to do something about it. Depression is a tricky thing...
ReplyDeleteThis is great news! I'd also love to get together again sometime when we're both free.
ReplyDeleteExercise is an awesome choice! And if you join a gym with a nursery, or go while your hubby is home, it gives you a little 'me' time in addition to the benefit of exercise. If it's not too cold where you are, bike riding is an inexpensive alternative.
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best!! You're a great mom and an awesome gal; keep that in mind!!
Good for you Kristen! Knowing you might need help and reaching out for it, for me, is always the hardest part.. I know how easy it is to get wrapped up in life and keep shrugging it off, but it will both help you AND you husband, AND your children! Your own happiness is Key!!!
ReplyDeleteI've been also jumping on the exercise bandwagon lately.. I've always been a big walker, but stepping it up more.. and god it feels great! If you ever want a walking buddy, you have one here also =]